School is Coming to An End

After today there will be Friday, then just a week left of school
Words can not express my feelings at this moment, to be graduating, leaving this place, making my way out into the new world...

My biggest wish that I will be more positive form here on out and I hope that I will have more positive feedback from others around me. I'm going tired of all the negative and the " I Don't Care" vibe I get from most of my peers.

...Moms says its because I have an "old spirit." Sadly, because I do I feel like I'm always the only one who seems to notice the rude and stupid behavior of my peers. Anyway, I'm typing this from school... The one website that seems not to be blocked. Hehe.

Anyhow, Awards night passed (disappointed... a little), Grad-Nite (upsetting but fun), Prom (Ugh), etc... The only thing left is "Senior Day" and Graduation... then I'm free.

Prom Pain

Finally, the dreadful prom is over.

Even though it slightly fun, my feet hurt really bad and I'm really tired. I went with Jessika, one of my junior friends. It was fun dancing with Cameron, Jess, Crystal, and Danny (sometimes) but I still wonder ig it was worth the feet damage. I suppose over all it was maybe a 7/10, other then the pain and the annoyance of men.
Martinez had to show me someone or something, but I never got the chance to see I was dancing. I'm sure it was his date or something, its not like he had someone for me.
Also, I like men and all, but why are they all obessed with skinny blondes? Why do I have to fight over a spot in someones eyes for ONE MOMENT with so many other girls. I was told I looked pretty by all the girls, James said it once but was (once again) more interested in Danny.
Of course everyone is more interested in all my friends... always a brides maid never a bride.


If I were gay I would be a pimp, other wise I'm stuck being the alonely fat chick.
Why?

Mind Gone Haywire

Lately I've been feeling so... mixed.

Mostly the emotions have been upset because of prom, I need a date and of course no one will take or ask me. My dress was custom made all beautiful, my nails are done, my necklace is picked, my shoes, etc. The only think missing... is a date.

Its a little annoying to work so hard to make your self look, descent, but no one wants you.

Plus other things that are driving me nuts.... argh